Decision that YOU make

Because that decision you make, I hate you. It's all because of what you said. You really give me hope that I finally find someone to guide me. But I guess not. I didn't ask all the fears inside myself, I don't. I tried to get rid of them. Trust me, I've try hard. But I can't do it alone :'( You make me more afraid to let myself free for the frst time. Guys will always be guys huh ? Gosh, why am I so stupid ! Why did I tell him ? I shouldn't have. Thanks for those short remarkable memories, thanks a lot ! Have a wonderful life.

*Crying heavily, don't ask !

Remain strong

Today is the last day im spending time w Iz. Even we're just being close w each other only last year, but many things we've been through. I help you when you need someone, same goes back w you (: Last year, have been the greatest challenge ever kn. Heh. Anyway, he's going to MRSM in Perak and yeahh, he get 8A's in his PMR. I'm v proud of him. He's leaving tmrw cs he's going to his hometown frst in Terengganu. So I guess I'll see you on schl holidays Iz ;) Do take care okay. Ayu tahu Iz bolh survive kat MRSM. Jgn jd cm Ayu dh lh, baru a year dh nk balik :P HAHA Study yr hardest for yr family and yr future (: If you're home and need a ride, just give me a call ;) I'll talk w you soon. I'm gonna miss you budak perasan HOT :D HAHAHAHAHA
Byeee, have fun there.

Lots of love,
Ayu

Memoir

This was 2005. When we're still in high schl. We do still cntct w each other by this time. Most of us. But rght nw, everyone seems to disappear. Myb they're busy w their own life routine. Some of us are working, taking license, having fun w other friends, myb w boyf / girlf ;) You knw what, I've been thinking, we should do this again. I mean reunion for senior badge 2003 of SKRM. And we should make all of us involve. No one should miss it because it's ours. We can try and find back all our friends and get back together. It doesn't matter if there's some of them moved away. We can still find a way rght ? (: Hm but, who's gonna handle this thing ? HAHA :D It ain't easy for sure. Based on the pict, Eddy is the only one that I don't contact rght nw. Where is he ? Does anyone knw ? Helloooooooooooooo ! Hee :D Eh wait, Faiz pun dh rarely cntct. Sometimes through myspace, we do talk. Haih, I miss everything abouut SKRM. Netball team the most ! 6 Tabah the best enn :P No offense. Heh. Pn Fatimah, she's the one that tought us our lesson the most. I mean seriously ! She's like our mom. The last time I saw her, it was last year. When she picks up Hanum's report card for mid year exam. Hm I think I'm gonna do something. For this badge (: Myb not all by myself, Zharif ade :D Hee. We'll see how it goes.

Love, Ayu

Embrace

Shame on you girl ! You shouldn't talking bad things about someone that you don't really knw. You don't change what people said and twist it to other meaning. Yre so nice in front of my face but in schl you talk things about me all around. And yeah, for yr information, this girl is still schling. Gosh, yre only 16 ! Waaaaaaaayyyyyy younger than I am. Mess up w yr own age lh. I don't talk bad things about you to other people. When you need someone, I'll always be there. Eventhough, we're nice to each other only for last year but still, I'm not the type that jealousing w girls that only one a guy that has a crush on me. You like him for hw many years, 2 or 3 ? I don't know. But at the same time, you do like other guys too ! You nk sgt ke all the guys for you ? Don't be selfish. Everyone has their own match. You'll find yrs. Myb not today but someday for sure. If you really love him, go on. You don't have to wry about me getting through. I won't. I don't contact him that often now. The way is all yours. That guy also seems to like you back. Snce you guys get along back v well now. Good for you, that is a postive sign. Just one thing, don't hurt him. Take good care of him. He deserve someone nice, I mean v v nice. Goodluck w that. Don't talk about me anymore please. Thanks

Sinking . .

Honestly, i rarely on my blog cs i thought there's nothing important to share. But today, I really can't keep all my burden alone. I dnt knw where can I find my girlf's -.- sry girls, I knw that you guys will always be there for me but the truth is, I always kept everything in my heart, all alone. I tak tahu ape msalah I smpai ssh sgt nk share ngn korang. Bkn korang tkd, korang ade. Jst everytime I nk stry kat korang, sure I terpk "They have their own problems too Ayu, dnt be selfish !". Atlast, I said nothing and pretend that I'm fine.

Since everyone of you have someone special in yr life, I dh tak bercerita sgt. I tak tahu lh whether you guys notice tak. I bkn desperate nk ade someone, just myb cs sume girlf's I ade someone time I have no one. But tuh sume rezeki msing msing kn (: I'm happy for you guys. Korang happy, I pun happy. I felt like on the top of the world when I dapat kuar w any of my frnds. Atleast, I can leave my unstable emotion behind even fr awhile. I knw I can still be happy w/out a special guy by my side. Even, I used to have one. Bt I do survive ;)

Hm if any of my good frnds need someone, I'm always available here. Just give me a call, insya Allah i angkat. If korang msg, I tk rply, fhm fhm lh ehh :D I dh jrang gl topup. No point pun topup, tkkn berbunyi lh phone. Heh

Haih, nih pun tk smpai quarter pn I let go. Payah sgt sgt nk release feelings nih ! Tkp lh, myb someday I'll share more and I'm sure that day will come.

Take care love, xxxx